It’s after 4am and I’m awake. Has everyone already had a “worst day of their life?” I had thought that I already had mine last year. It’s was pretty bad, let me tell you. But I have got to say that this takes the cake. I have never cried this much in my life. I can hardly go a few seconds or minutes without tearing up. Last night my high school softball coach who has known me for 3 years, cut me from my senior year of playing on the team. I was in shock for a few seconds. I couldn’t move and I didn’t know what was happening. I honestly couldn’t believe that this was being done to me. Besides me being probably the most hurt and heartbroken I have ever been, I am so humiliated. In front of everyone he cut me, and other girls. But when I’m sitting here crying, I’m crying for myself. I have been playing softball since I was 7 years old so ive been around the block a few times. I know more tricks than the average softball player. Not only am I better than most of the girls out there, but I’m a returning STARTER ON VARSITY DAMMNIT. Last year I played every game, had the second highest RBI’s on the team, and got honorable mention in the southeastern district for outfield. Just to clarify, I do work. And to come out here and be so embarrassed, so hurt, how could this happen? My coach basically told me that he didn’t trust me. What does that even mean? Im a 17 year old high schooler. Before I even stepped on the field, I knew he judged me. He talks shit about me all the time to other players and even some of my fellow seniors, people who I thought were my friends, trash talk me. His mind was made up way before he cut me. I just don’t understand how this could even be done to me. I used to stick up for my coach, “oh he’s not that bad you guys!” And this is what I get? My heart is literally broken. I have no words for this. I have never felt more betrayed in my whole life. It’s great to know that my last time on a softball field is me bawling my eyes out because I got cut my senior year :’(